#fragile

7.26 in the evening,

where the blue sky is turning dark.

I went down to get myself a Mocha.

thought of getting my favorite fried beehoon down the street to happyfy* myself.

WHO AM I KIDDING.

I am too depressed to swallow food.

On my way back home,

I passed by this mother pushing a baby push walker carriage.

Her baby was adorable really :)

and she was humming a Hokkien song to her baby.

I basically had to look up the ceiling to avoid tears rolling down.

the minute i walked into the lobby,

I saw this young girl who's about my age saying goodbye to her mom.

I could hear her mom asking her to eat on time, to take care of herself and all.

i couldn't take it anymore.

i was pressing the lift's Up button again&again.

harder each time.

I miss my Mommy Dearest.

I seldom talk to my friends about it.

cos' it seems childish and lame.

but since the day Daddykins left us, i literally just wanna stick w/ Mommy Dearest all the time.

The fear of losing it is.

But.

reluctantly i'm growing up.

i have to pursue my education for a better future. For my family's better future.

I overestimated myself.

I'm not that independent and tough.

I'm still alwys the Daddy's or Mommy's girl at heart.

Forever & Alwys will be.

:')