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i believe there's nvr gonna be one&only.
because its too good to be true ;)

our next semester's timetable is out :)
and we have psychology coming our way yay!
no classes to be attended on Monday *whooot*
it shld be pretty relaxing next semester if compared.
awwww i just love how it sounds. RELAXING :D

anyways.
back to life :)
i've been pretty preoccupied by other stuffs than my laptop & fb.
(which is abit unexpected)
i've barely came online for this break and im lovin' how it is.
eventho i may be a tad outdated from th INs&Updates* lol.
this is abit late,
but my babycar is back, pretty as th way before it was crashed, by me.

and right now,
im a lil fear that my mum & sis would 've to threaten me or force me to return to th dead town for college *yawns*
life right now is great.
its even better than highsch's holidays.
well, because you would 've to keep up w/ th revisions and stuffs during th hols.
so its not exactly holidays, like HOLIDAYS. big, bright and bold *wink*
its silly to feel so you were saying?
for its not like its th first sem break ever u know.
but i spent my last sem break in tears practically all th time so there goes :)
and th best part is, not even 1 single day 24hours is spent in th hospital!

but,
i do kinda miss my friends already :)
i miss th gossips, th yum cha sessions til midnight.
nick actually came i dno when (forgotten) and asked me for dinner & ltr for a drink that night.
but, i had earlier plans! so screw that *sigh*
its a dilemma actually. well im in dilemma :\
its like i've heard too much, and i've known too much deep down inside.
why issit have to be so hard to just make real friends i wonder.
like why can't you, you and th rest just take off th goddamn masks, stop pretending to be nice when you're actually cursing others inside and dnt show th innocent faces to cover your sins omg.
th innocent faces, they're motherfuckingly annoying srsly *shakes head*

anyway.
i've received loads of Cny wishes thru th ph.
(just too bad i tend to leave my ph evrywhere, just everywhr.
for instance, i dnt even know where my ph is right now.
so yea. sorry for not replying your texts & answering your 911 ph calls.)
well, just because i dnt really like Cny doesn't mean you shouldn't.
so there goes :)

HAPPY HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR !
may you flood your pockets & handbags w/ ang paos!
:)
and ltr, you ll get to buy me something instead..
:p

ltr :)

foot-in-mouth disease :D

Hi!
This is me and my BIG mouth.
i'll have to warn you,
because its so BIG, that you would want to slap me to keep it well behaved*.
*shrugs*

so.
i was blog-hopping* again(as always),
and i came across this blog whose owner was abdsurd!
he claimed to place her dearest 'laopo' at th uppermost in his heart.
and he is like what, 16 or 17? *roll eyes*
what a redonkulous thing to say.
i really cannot stand such people.
i mean i dnt like people only focusing on their boyf/girlf, laopo/laogong, whatever names you call your other half in their whole friggin' life.
so.. lifeless.
once, i had a boyf who claimed that he couldnt live w/o me. *roll eyes even more*
like omg really? bye go to hell then.
srsly, you could've done better. much better.
(im not boasting alright, its nothing to be proud of, its pathetic!)
you can still live w/o someone you love or cherish so much.
it might hurt, BUT YOU CAN STILL FUCKING LIVE.
(for instance, i did. eventho i lost th man i loved th most in this world.)

another thing.
i can't stand cyberlove.
i have lots of friends around me doing this,
but nahh-ah im not buying it :\
like srsly, can you really love one person when you hvnt even met th person in real, hvnt talked in real like as in face to face where you can clearly see th expressions, hvnt went for dates or someth?
like what if th guy sweettalk to you when he's actually digging his nose or sth like srsly *smack head*
or worse might just happen! who knows.
take fb as example.
i can upload hot charming pictures of some other guy who i dnt friggin' know and pretend that it's me.
i can create juicy names like Danny Max David whatever and start picking up on girls.
and girls can do just th same thing you know.
(Ilike i've always think Jessy sounds sexy and naughty lol.)
and th best part is that,
it can be done over&over again!
let's say, im this jerk on fb and i can flirt w/ natasha jane penny bla bla bla all at th same time!

also.
i hate th desperation of girls in wanting to get a boyf.. or girlf.
(no bias in homosexual lol.)
dnt get me wrong, i just hate th DESPERATION. th DESIRE. whatever you call that.
like why must you be attached.
unless you're really in love and all.
otherwise, WHY *demands an answer* WHY WHY WHY!
i really don't get it :\
like are you like, dying or someth w/o a boyf.
and i just realised some boys had this kinda ahem needs as well wtf really.
*covers eyes*
please dnt embarassed yourself when you're only like in th middle of 20s srsly.
embrace your awesomeness!

i should really stop this random ranting already.
before i risk my life, my social circle and my reputation(if i have any) lol.
im not referring to anyone in this post.
th names that were used aren't shared with any of my REAL friends either *wink*
sometimes you can't shut your BIG mouth for too long right.
for it might explode some day and you'll be in big big trouble.
and i dnt have my biatch with me so i rather rant all by myself here.
afterall, its much safer isn't it :)

no offence really :)
dnt kill me.

its kinda ironic when they say just be yourself be who you are.
but if we're to be who we really are, talk what we really meant and do what we really want to..
we gain nothing but most prbly a truckload of haters!
*shakes head* so what now.

:)

030210

Hola :))

thankyouuu to my lovelies for all th concern that i've got due to th previous post.
yadah yadah it did sound a lil' too emo-ish i know :\
not my oh-im-so-happy-life-is-so-beautiful* sort of personality lol.
*shrugs*
i've had a lil' bit of that damndepression im vry sure about that.
but anyhow,
i ll just have to remind myself that,
there's no such thing NO FUCKING SUCH THING as perfection!
*inhale exhale*

anyway.
life is too short for meyou to be whining about *wink*
i've been helpin' my mum baking biscuits & stuffs :)
and doing some normally-u-won't-see-me-doing* house chores lol.
nothing much really.
just enjoying some family time at my homesweethome :)
lazing around sitting on th couch watchin MTV Channel [V] DisneyChannel HBO and blah.
goin' after episodes of Glee & 90210 and some other chick flicks :D
and going to night markets & meeting up peeps sometimes.
and enjoying random meals *yum*

im abit late for this but Hello 2010!
im looking forward to a whole lot of changes as well you see :)
like i've this friend who have dyed her black hair to yellowish green! *whoot*
well of course i've none of her courage. none.
and so there was this random afternoon,
my mom, my sis & i figured that we should go for haircuts!
and dang dang dang we went.
and now i friggin' missed my long, long hair *sniff sniff*
:(

some old pictures as evidence of my never-changing* hairstyle lol.

during my last yr of highsch i think :\
LOOK AT MY HAIR! SO LONG OKAY!


Orientaion week last year :)
MY HAIR!


last semester.
long hair. long hair. long hair.


earlier last semester.
RAMBUT PANJANG*, kan? :(


few days ago. FEW DAYS!
before th hairdresser when chop chop chop.

(and i actually have pictures taken during highsch as well.
but they're vry malufyingkan*! so scratch that.
but basically i had th same hairstyle same fringe same LONG HAIR!!!!)

*whine*
*whine smore*
*whine whine whine!*

so i've cut my hair like really short :(
and i've cut my really long fringe as well :( :(
it only reaches shoulder length right now :( :( :(

yours truly-

im a kid now!!!! ahhhhhhhh!!!
*smack head*
(it takes a hell lot of courage to upload this)

anyhow,
a BIG shoutout to Victor Lim Yew Kin!

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY :)

p/s.
i do wish that im prioritized sometimes :(

300110

im like, fucking depressed now.
this semester break has been doing me no good. no good at all.
:(
like why was i even born.
why lar.

270110 :))

SEM BREAK officially started *woohooo*
:]


We celebrated at Club9 by th night of th 27th.
yes, exactly on th day that we sat for our last paper!
some of them went to Kbox right after th paper,
while i joined th rest of em' at 10ish.
wednesday, Ladies' night *double woohoo*


some of th pic-ka-boo-tures :)

just when you thought he intended to post this way for th camera,
he actually just vomited,
and he has teardrops by his cheeks!
totally natural, lol.
*laughs*


anyway it was a great night :D
eventho there werent many kaki-s that came,
and eventho we werent exactly hyped enough.
but ohh well,
its th great companions that count afterall :)
and of course,
Mcd after that *wink*
we had a pretty great laugh before heading homes.
some of them had to drive all th way bck to kampar or teluk intan.
*shakes head* luckily nobody is drunk!

Happy Holidays evryone!
we'll meet again after just a few weeks time!
Enjoy :)

i was shocked to hear that from you :)
but still im happy.
at least you care right *smiles*
and you're right.
i musnt be trusting people around me easily.
but still, i trust you :]
thankyouuuuu.


Yours Truly w/ love.

do love my weird, awkward smile, lol.
:]