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Ima bitch. seriously.
:(
If i don't care,
then what's with th tears?
why do i have to go on with this over&over again.
and now,
I've lost a friend.

One DrunkDuck.

Apparently,
I was one very drunk duck yestd night.
It was raining yestd so we had to cancel our earlier plan.
Instead we headed to Station R to practically get drunk *giggles*
Minutes later,
th rain stopped.
We headed to Westlake instead.


Ok i guess i was so gone yestd that i wasnt alone when i was awake this morning.
:\
nothing to be shocked about.
I still had my T and pants on =D
and of course, it was a She* sleeping next to me *wink*
I guess i was too over that it wasnt safe to leave me alone =s
I woke up around 8 sth in th morning feeling extremely nauseous..
and i had to skip my drama class.
(for i don't wanna be so dramatic* that i ended up throwing up all over th place)
I babbled a lil' and went bck to sleep.
YY's call woke me up.
was really reluctant to get off th bed :(


I remembered vividly we were actually asking why were we drinking *laughs*
I dno how to react to certain situations that came up so abruptly to me.
I can't put th blame on anyone,
because I know so well myself that i was like an odd* one w/ em'.
and also I was being a total.. idiot *smack head*
and frankly, Im th friggin' problem.
Im not that good. I mean im not even good enough :(
how can I expect someone like you w/ th ugly duckling?
*buries head*


Ohh and it was not even close to being a surprise,
when i saw what miss pui chin wrote in her blog, about me *roll eyes*

我家的ab哥~
超级无敌粗鲁妹
但也是心灵最脆弱的她
性格和我有百分之100%像的她
是我谈心事的好对象……

Tell me do i look like im even close to what she wrote?
*giggles*



I dnt wanna lose you as what you are to me now.
Yes, Im a coward likethat.

*chik chak* th happy moments.

This is what you'll get from a lazy ass,
who hasn't been sleeping for th whole night,
who had been screaming in th middle of th night w/ th silly room mate,
who had a tiring battle w/ th siu keong* until 3 in th morning,
who had been tossing&turning for th whole night instead of just fucking went to sleep,
who had been to class from 9 in th friggin morning to 3 in th afternoon,
who had been hyperactively joined th bunch of monkeys to Utar's gym after class,
who had just reached home after running cycling jumping around,
who had to go for her FAU meeting in like another half an hour time.
:)



sleepy koh koh during tamadun islam class.
btw, a great performer on stage :)
(kelvin asked me to capture this, im innocent)



my vry cute nephew who is now an expert in posing for th camera!
kids nowadays *shakes head*









Th sweet one who had gone thru a lot w/ me (:
and of course, fighting w/ siu keong* is included!





My DPR mates (:
i love them to bits~


There're actually a lot to blog about,
but so lil' time :(
gotta run-


Do you feel th same way i feel about you?
:)

Life is.

Grab hold of evrything you have.
Because you might nvr know,
what you're having now is actually what you're only left with.

It struck me real hard,
when i was told about his loss.
**My sincere condolence**
i wouldnt be sucha douche bag by claiming that i totally get what he feels.
eventhough yes, i've been thru th same loss just recently.
but no, it doesnt feel th same, i must say.
I sincerely hope he can manage to walk over it,
eventhough i know, i really know how hard that's gonna be.


Life.
just how much do you know about it?


Im feeling so tired.
Its just weird when i saw them getting all teary,
when they were to know about what i've been thru all this while,
when there's not even one teeny tiny teardrop on my cheeks.
Today is odd.
When i had been told about his tragic incident,
I had to really hold my tears from falling.


I am tough. I ought to be tough.
This is th night, after so many nights of not crying,
that i can't hold them from falling anymore


i get all teary when i reminisces-
Imisshim.alot.

Life is drama.

Like, finally.
i've attended my Drama class (:
*thumbs up*
Well th novels themself were actually not bad,
i've only read th Emily of Emerald Hill.
th irony of th ending :(
but i did learn to observe th happenings around using a differ angle.
talk about sarcasm or satiric! ohh and human folly! *laughs*
and i love our Drama lecturer.
she's dramatic, she's always high spirited, she's just awesome!
ohh and faul languages seem to be vry welcome for her class btw.
*giggles*
and its vry kind of her towards my loss (:


I went hyped whn i got th msg yestd,
thn I went ballistic whn i reached th night market,
for some reason *gahhh*
Duhh. forget it *roll eyes*
through this whole time, i've been treated vry well,
but do spare me w/ th charity alright :)


Ohh and people have been asking me to blog in Chinese.
like, are you kidding me *eyes widen*
well sorry,
but according to my relatives,
my Canto, Mandarin and Hokkien have worsen alot :\
so, pass that will ya.
but im now quite an expert in texting w/ pin yin y'know!
I've been texting quite much using pin yin nowadays.
i know, vry abnormal of me, but,
its true! its happening!
*laughs*
Ohh and im so happy *Wheeeee*
evryone stays :)
*phew*
let us all reach out to th best!


Life is great, w/ a dream to work towards.
:)